Songs that I listen to when emotions become too much to deal with. That’s me lately. I don’t know if I’m lonely, depressed, hurting, or healing and letting go of past hurts. Or all of the fucking above. All I know is I’m tired of feeling all these stupid feelings.

It’s a confusing time. And this is the music I listen to on these kind of nights. This video sends a powerful message.

Who am I missing? I don’t even know anymore. Maybe a part of myself. That spark. That something I lost years ago from dating emotionally manipulative and abusive men.

And so, I still grieve.

Been traveling these wide roads for so long
My heart’s been far from you
Ten-thousand miles gone

Oh, I wanna come near and give ya
Every part of me
But there’s blood on my hands
And my lips are unclean

In my darkness I remember
Momma’s words reoccur to me
“Surrender to the good Lord
And he’ll wipe your slate clean”

Take me to your river
I wanna go
Oh, go
Take me to your river
I wanna know

Dip me in your smooth waters, I go in
As a man with many crimes
Come up for air
As my sins flow down the Jordan

Oh, I wanna come near and give ya
Every part of me
But there’s blood on my hands
And my lips are unclean

Take me to your river
I wanna go
Oh, go
Take me to your river
I wanna know

I wanna go, wanna go, wanna go
I wanna know, wanna know, wanna know
Wanna go, wanna go, wanna go
Wanna know, wanna know, wanna know
Wanna go, wanna go, wanna go (yeah)
Wanna know, wanna know, wanna know

Hoo, ohh, take me to your river
I wanna go
Lord, please let me know
Take me to your river
I wanna know

Source: LyricFind

Songwriters: Austin Jenkins / Chris Vivion / Joshua Block / Todd Michael Bridges

River lyrics © Downtown Music Publishing, Sony/ATV Music Publishing LLC