Friday thoughts on life changes

I’ve been thinking a lot lately about how life is changing for me. I’ve been stuck in a rut for a very long time. And if it weren’t for the pandemic, I’d probably still be in that rut. Stuck in a dead end job. Chronic health issues. Dealing with mice infestations for the rest of my life. And being stuck at home with nothing to do. I can’t even go for walks in my neighbourhood as I don’t feel safe here anymore.

I have a few more days before I am out of time (not town) to sign a lease. I have two viewings scheduled for the weekend but I’ve got my heart set on one building that has a fitness centre. It’s further south than I’d like to be, but it looks like a great neighbourhood. Not only does the building have a fitness centre, but it’s walking distance to a rec centre with a pool. That means when things get started again, I could walk to the pool and get back into aqua fit classes. Not only that, but there are lots of great quiet streets to walk down and get some fresh air.

One thing I’m looking forward to is being out of downtown. I’ve lived in the downtown area for nearly twenty years and have watched with dismay as rents increase but safety issues decline. We have a massive homeless problem. Which I don’t look down on homeless people – but some of them are very aggressive. Drugs are so rampant downtown you can’t tell who’s tweaked out on meth or coke.

The building I’m living in has also really taken a downturn. Between regular break-ins, the ongoing mice infestation – it’s so bad now – and plumbing issues – that a lot of people are looking to get out. My condo owners have checked out and are selling the unit after I leave. They’ll need to do a lot of cleaning and patchwork. I’ve done what I can and am spot cleaning daily. But there are places I can’t get into without tearing things apart – like cabinets and cupboards. They’ll have to do some repair work before they can sell this place. I’m kind of glad. It means not having to deal with realtors.

I’m hoping to be able to return to work in a few months. The pandemic has really stalled things as many people are still working from home. I’m hoping after the move and I’m settled in, I can get back into working out on a daily basis. I’m getting bored and restless of doing the same thing day after day. If I can find steady part time work to pay the bills, that I can do from home – I’d be happy with that.

My dad has been moved to the southside and I’ll be just a ten minute drive from him. Instead of the 40 minute drive we had before. Bus service isn’t too bad but I’ll likely carpool if I have to go anywhere. I’ll be closer to my family on the southside so that’s what matters. Both my sisters want me closer to them – so, I’m making an effort to get there.

Fingers crossed. This new place even has an electric fireplace. All my furniture should fit and there’s storage. And a balcony with a third floor view facing the sun – hope I can see the sunsets too.

My sleep is still off and I can’t get up in the morning. I weened myself off the drugs as I don’t think they were doing much of anything. I think once I move, things will start to sort themselves out and I can get back into a healthy and normal routine.

So, that’s where we are this sunny and warm Friday afternoon. Spring has sprung early and the snow is melting. Birds are singing. And the squirrels are going crazy outside. Is it mating season? Maybe that’s the reason.

Have a great weekend! Time to get cleaning.

6 Comments Add yours

  1. Hilary Tan says:

    What kind of “dead end job” are you stuck in, if you don’t mind me asking? Is it possible to find a better job in your area? I have a couple causal jobs that pay well but I don’t get many shifts – they are far and few in between but it’s still better than nothing. Even though I only started working as of last month. but I can say that casual jobs are out there, even during these pandemic times.

    As for house hunting, I can understand the frustrations. We have been looking for a new place for a while but haven’t found the right place yet. We have to move by the end of April and we’re running out of time. I am sorry that you are dealing with mice infestations – I couldn’t imagine having to deal with that.

  2. Wendy says:

    I was an admin with the provincial government. There was a hiring freeze and I was facing some severe discrimination due to my chronic illnesses. I’m still on medical leave. And the government has a duty to accommodate to find me a new position. I’m looking at other options for once the pandemic restrictions have lifted. I was over qualified for the job and was never considered for promotions while watching other staff move on up.

    Rent is so freaking expensive compared to the size of what you get in return. People are just greedy here. And yes mice are gross. SO gross.

  3. Hilary Tan says:

    One would think that a government job would be half-decent. The healthcare company I am with is run by the government – most of the positions are casual though. That’s terrible that you faced discrimination. ☹ At least you quality for medical leave so that’s something, right?

    Yes, I agree that rent is really expensive! Buying a house is ridiculous too, as prices are SO inflated here. It’s worse in other provinces though. I’ve been living in the same apartment for the past 3 years and it’s gotten to the point where I need more space.

  4. Wendy says:

    Yeah on the rent. With this building it’s not just the mice it’s also plumbing issues and heating issues. Seems the heating system breaks down every time we have a cold snap. And then random power outages too. The building I’m looking at Monday is not as new as I’d like but looks like it is well maintained.

    For the government – yes and no. Just depends on who you work with and unfortunately, our senior management was very abusive.

  5. Wendy says:

    I just had a chat with a prospective and landlord and he seems so nice and easy going. I’m excited to see the condo on Monday. I guess sometimes you have to make sacrifices and travel longer distances to find a good home!

  6. Hilary Tan says:

    I hope you get this new place! 😇✨It sounds like a much better place to live. Traveling longer distances can be annoying but sometimes it’s for the better! 🙂

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