Monday Mood – change is the one constant thing in life

It’s Monday again but the sun is shining and most of the snow has melted. I’m finally sitting down with my first cup of coffee for the day. It’s instant coffee. I am actually drinking instant coffee and like it. It’s a delicious cappuccino mix. It’s more calories than regular coffee but it’s a delicious treat.

As a single person, I found making an entire pot of coffee to be a waste. I only drink one or two cups a day now, so instant coffee just makes more sense. I’ll keep my coffee maker until I buy a new one anyway – a Christmas present from me to me – but for now, I’m loving this.

My sleep schedule is still off. I think I’m coming down with a cold. I know the difference between COVID and a cold. As an allergy sufferer, I usually get sick this time of year. It’s also due to the change in weather. But last year was the worst. I was sick from August to November. I couldn’t breathe. I coughed until my entire body ached and cried out in pain. I never want to get sick like that again.

I received a letter in the mail that I knew was coming but was hoping wouldn’t happen for a while. My physician of 20+ years is retiring. She told me at our last appointment in August. Remember? When she told me I should “get the bleep out of this province”. She’s cutting back her hours and reducing patient load. I mean, our family alone is like 15 patients for her. So, I get it. She’s tired of the paperwork and work my employer generates for her.

So, I’m searching for a new doctor. Which yes, it’s a pain, but I’m looking at the silver lining. When you see a doctor for a long time, sometimes you become too comfortable and rely too often on the same treatments. I think seeing a newer doctor with a fresh set of eyes may be helpful to manage symptoms of my illnesses.

The migraines have been pretty good. Even my periods have mostly stabilized with my new fasting schedule and healthier diet. I still allow myself treats now and then – but for the most part – I’m eating healthy.

I’d love to find a doctor who is very knowledgeable about PCOS and women’s issues. My doctor was great but someone with more specialized training or focus might be more beneficial. The only other main issue I have is the migraines and hypermobility. But as I lose more weight, I think those will stabilize as well.

Last night it hit me how much my life is changing and while it’s terrifying, I’m also excited. I’ve been stuck in a rut the last few years especially since moving into this condo. There’s nothing to do here. I can’t even really go for walks as the neighbour isn’t safe anymore. Downtown in general is being overrun with homeless camps, crime, and drugs. I no longer feel safe here.

I’m looking at moving west come spring time. Still in the same city, but west of downtown. Areas like Glenora, Westmount – I like these areas a lot. There are parks nearby and lots of things to do. I’d be closer to the rec centre, the space science centre and movie theatres. I’d even be closer to the big mall – so there’s that to look forward to.

We sold the house last month as you know. And changing doctors will severe my ties to the south of the city. The only family I see is my sister in Sherwood Park and my dad on the south west of the city. So, going west – makes sense for now.

My time at church has even cut back to twice a month. We’ve had a few funerals – small funerals and we all wore masks – which helps keep me busy. But I can see myself eventually retiring from playing the organ. It doesn’t bring me as much joy as it used to. Maybe it’s just COVID and all. We can’t have our coffees or socials after the service. The things keeping me there are gone.

And so, these are thoughts that I’m left with on this sunny Monday afternoon. It’s going to be a quiet week, so I think it’s time to do some work on the condo and get packing and organizing my spare room. I’ve done a lot of work on cleaning things out – but there’s still a lot to do. And I’m still finding the odd mouse dropping – I can’t tell if they’re new or old that I missed before. It’s gross.

Thoughts for today.

Change is the one constant in life. You either learn to adapt to the change, or you get left behind. For now, I’m embracing it and making the most of it. Life is too short not to.

Anyway, I think that’s it for today.

How are you spending your Monday?

2 Comments Add yours

  1. I strongly agree with the post and agree that it is often important to move on and go with the change in life 🙂

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  2. Wendy says:

    Thanks! I think it’s hard to embrace change for some people. But change also helps a person grow. So… 2021 will be a year of growth!

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