I screwed up my four day streak of getting out of bed before nine am. But I forced myself to get up at 10 am and here I am waiting for my morning coffee. I switched back to McCafe.
For the first time in a long time, I am actually feeling pretty good. Good energy. Good mood. My legs feel good from all the core work outs I’ve been doing with the exercise ball. My yoga pants are swimming – so I know I’ve lost fat around my thighs.
I even managed to fit into an old summer shirt – my condo gets so warm so it’s time to dust off the old summer wardrobe. That’s why I’ve been pushing myself – I’d really rather not buy an entire new wardrobe in the fall because I couldn’t fit into my old clothes.
I should try on some pants later. See if there’s change.
I am actually going out tomorrow – somewhere that isn’t a doctor’s appointment or for groceries. I’m nervous and excited at the same time. I haven’t seen my Sunday morning friends in four months!
Those of you who know, I volunteer on Sundays and play music at a small church which is my dad’s church – though he was never really much one for religion. It was my grandmother who was. It’s actually why the family moved to Edmonton – for the Danish church. It’s become a second home to me too as I’ve been there for fifteen years.
We’re live streaming the service tomorrow. We’re not allowed to sing – only the pastor is which makes sense but is sad for the older members of the church. Many of them are 60 and up. So when I say my friends are older, I do indeed mean that. But I’ve known these people for nearly twenty years. And some of them, have been life-long family friends through my dad and grandmother.
That’s why I keep going. I love the people. They are my extended family and I’ve missed them. I’ve missed getting hugs. I’ve missed our morning coffee. And I’ve missed playing music in general which is something I’ve done for so many years.
God, I miss hugs. I really miss hugs. I can’t imagine what my dad feels like. He at least has the nurses and staff to talk to. They come in to give him meds every few hours and help him to the bathroom.
So, tomorrow – that’s when things change. I’m getting back into routine and trying to be more social. I have an appointment on Monday for a skills assessment for work. I’m still waiting for one more test and then I’m done with bullshit medical things for a bit.
This is also why I’m focused on getting healthy and losing weight. I know that will solve a lot of my problems. While the hormones and PCOS, arthritis will still be there – at least I can manage the stomach issues and migraines with my new diet – which I’m still tracking – two weeks and counting.
I’m to use my inhaler and nasal spray every day regardless of whether I’m having symptoms or not. I’ve added vitamins to my daily routine – and I’m already feeling like I have more energy – that could be the sleep too.
- Vitamin D3 – I’m deficient, and it helps with weight loss
- Magnesium – migraines
- Vitamin B12 – good for skin, hair
- Vitamin B2 – also good for burning fat – it also turns your pee neon yellow
- A probiotic –
On the suggestion of my who pharmacist is amazing. I’m on antibiotics for my skin which is clearing up fast. Drinking more water. And feeling really good.
As for today- I might venture out a little later for a short walk. The neighbourhood exploded yesterday with some kind of protest. Apparently, there’s trouble in Ethiopia. We have a large community here in Edmonton – along with a large Somalian community. Edmonton is indeed a very multi-cultural city and always has been.
The sun is shining finally. The rain has stopped for a while. The birds are singing. The crows are quiet. And the hellions (children) across the street are inside for now. It’s amazing how much noise children can produce when siblings scream at each other instead of using inside voices.
I scream in my head at them but I don’t think that’s the same thing.
Anyway! Off to start my day.
PS I’m considering upgrading my Spotify to that Duo account where I can have two accounts and start creating playlists for this blog. Would you be interested in that? Let me know in the comments. I canceled my Canva account so saving more money each month.