Tuesday Mood: Numb. I am slowly losing my mind.

The phrase “I am slowly losing my mind” is no longer a joke here. There is this vibration noise that I’ve been hearing since six am yesterday morning and it is literally, driving me insane.

I’m positive I heard someone’s tv through the walls starting at 6 am yesterday. Not the first time. It sounded like someone was watching the news. I sent a polite email to the landlords about it and they contacted the couple above me.

At which I was then accused of “harassment” – what? This is the first complaint I’ve filed since August 2019 – and that was about noise and mice. I was letting the neighbors know there was mice in the building and that I was moving. But the neigbour complains that I’m harassing him? Wtf?

One email, in ten months, is harassment? I’m not imagining this noise. It’s there. It’s constant. I can hear it from my balcony as I sat out there sipping my coffee at 7 am this morning wishing the sound would go away.

I even went downstairs – still there but faintly. Outside? Yup. But faintly.

I even looked this up online – there’s a condition called Musical Ear – no way. It sounds legit. I cleaned out my ears. I did sinuses rinses. I used ear drops.

And that noise – is still there. I’m sure whatever is causing it is laughing at my misery.

It’s still there when I plug my left ear. I can hear it slightly, ever so slightly with the right ear.

And it’s driving me insane. To the point that I want to tear up the floorboards to find out where this noise is coming from. It’s not the appliances. Not if the sound is outside the building.

I emailed my landlords again to relay this new discovery. I said, “Am I slowly going insane? Because the noise is outside too.”

I’ve had my humidifier going on full blast to drown it out. I’ve had my headphones on. Right now, I’m listening to binaural beats and I swear – it’s the only thing that is blocking the noise out.

This video is said to “help with ear infections” and honestly, I’m so desperate to get rid of the noise – that I’m willing to try it.

But let’s get back to the main issue, shall we?

One email in ten months is harassment? Good to know. I haven’t even spoken to these people in the hall way or passing by. The last time I contacted them was for help for salting the sidewalks in the winter time. That was it. I stopped complaining about issues because it was useless.

That was December 2018. 2018! So, TWO emails in TWO years.. And that wasn’t even to do with noise. It was just being a friendly neighbour asking for help to keep the sidewalks safe. Which wtf are we paying condo fees for if we have to do this ourselves?

Look folks. I know it’s tough times and we’re all at home and going out of our minds. But come on…

One email in a year is not harassment. It really isn’t. And it wasn’t even sent to you directly. You could have just helped me find the source of the noise instead of falsely accusing me of harassment.

I’m so done with condo living. Is it 2021 yet?

Here. Take a listen. Binaural beats are soothing if anything – it’s the one thing drowning out this madness.

It’s working. This music. It’s working. It’s drowning out the vibrations completely. I may never shut it off.

I wonder if they have beats to attract money? Because I could some more of that. Problems would be solved!


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