Today is definitely a better day. I think I’m all caught up on sleep. By the time I rolled out of bed, I felt pretty amazing. For the first time in a long time. The pain is minimal today. I have pretty good energy. I have plans for the day. I’m making plans in my head for fitness goals for this month.
I stepped on the scale this morning and I’m still down almost ten pounds. I can see the difference in my face. And even my pj’s are fitting looser. I’m lighter than I’ve been all year. The swelling in my legs and arms seem to be done.
So, what to focus on this week? I think that’s a better question. I’ve said this before – but setting small and realistic goals are more achievable and will help you to lose weight and keep it off long-term. Losing weight too quickly, often results in having issues like loose skin, or worse – gaining it all back twice as fast. I speak from experience as someone with yo-yo’ing weight.
The lard works in mysterious ways.
But I noticed my nightie fits a little looser today. Maybe it’s all the kale I’ve been eating that is quickly becoming a new favorite food of mine. Mostly, because you can pop it in the microwave and get a nice taste. Fun. Easy. Fast.
I’m feeling less dread about upcoming changes and feeling more optimistic about the future. While the job market is bleak, maybe I should start thinking about taking courses for a new career. I’m going to make an appointment with an occupational therapist in the next week to discuss that very thing. I’m officially on a leave without pay from my job. I can still go back if my doctor okays it. But…
I’m still hoping my claim will be approved. Or at the very least, I may be eligible for other health benefits. Being sick for so long, due to workplace illness – has affected my entire life. My relationships. I stopped dating. I lost interest in music. I hit a real depression. It’s time to make positive changes and think about the future. Even in a bleak economy.
Fitness Goals for February
- Lose 8-10 pounds by end of February
- Speak to an occupational therapist
- If approved for benefits, join a swim class
- Research marketing courses
- Start selling off things I no longer use
Working from home has been a dream of mine for the last decade since I was diagnosed with PCOS. It’s what led me to this blog and led me to starting various youtube channels. Music has been disappointing. Hardly any sales this year. And by that, I mean 0.99 in sales. I’ve invested thousands of dollars into a home studio, marketing, and developing content – but nothing. And yet, my gaming channel at mostlystimsstuff, in just a few weeks is gaining more traffic. Wish I had known how popular gaming was a few years ago.
I’m looking at downsizing and preparing for the worst, which means selling off things I don’t use. I bought a P900 Nikon camera last year for $600. I’ve used it twice. The camera is nice, and is great for night photography and capturing the sun and moon. But — where I live currently, I can count on one hand how many times I’ve seen the moon this winter. Too much light pollution and too many buildings in my way.
Anyone want a Nikkon P900 camera barely used? I’m selling it for $500. My cell phone is still working pretty well for pictures.
My doctor suggested I start looking into courses to get a better paying job. She thinks the constant stress and being passed over for promotions is affecting my emotional health. And she is right. I’ve been depressed about this for some time. I stayed at my job for the people but now those people have shown they have no interest in my life. And so… it’s time for a change. My interests are all over. I think a good career choice would be marketing or graphic design. Two things I’m passionate about.
The doc is also really worried that if I return to the office, I will get sick again. I now have occupational asthma from exposure to irritants at work. Even with my sinus issues, I’ve NEVER had asthma in my entire life. And now, there are days, where even breathing is a struggle. Losing weight is a must to even survive. I’m worried by returning to work, I’ve ruined any change that I would have for promotion that I was working so hard towards last year. I put so much energy into courses, training, research. I feel like it was a waste. I would love to be my own boss. Set my own hours. Be that creative person I long to be. I feel inspired to create content. But it just doesn’t pay the bills.
In a perfect world – if I could work a couple of days a week, and then do consulting as my main gig – that would be a dream job. A job where I could work remotely in the comfort of my own recliner and pj’s. So, that if I am having a bad health day, I can head back to bed.
Any thoughts? Any ideas? Any legitimate work from home options? I’ve checked into freelancing but most are scams. There are a few jobs out there, but most seem either way underpaid, or I don’t have enough education.
Tomorrow is another day. I’ll get through this.